Reading

I always find it HILARIOUS when im reading a steamy sex scene, blush because of the racy content and then realize, nobody but you KNOWS whats going on....its like the movie in my mind can be seen to others-- then I remember that they cant see the dark and sensual thoughts courseing in my mind's eye---- and continue to read on read ON! lol

Fire

So after enjoying delish flavored Hookah with some of my neighbors we innocently cleaned up and they left and I went to bed.

I smelled smoke but thought nothing of it as my window was open and I live on the East Coast now so having fires during the appropriate season is not surprising-- (lol @ Cali ppl wondering WTF?)

Well-- I get a knock on my door, its my roommates freaking out that there is FIRE IN THE KITCHEN!!!!

Turns out that there were lingering embers and when dumped out into the trash, and then decided to smoke profusely turning our apartment into a sound stage for a horror flick.

Now, I do have expreience with fire, and Im pretty confiendent in my traumatic situation calm and levelheadedness regarding emergency and possibly stressful situations-- (thank you HOURS of watching TV and knowing pretty much what to do in any situation-- BIG shout out to Bear Grylls for no other reason than you are hot and I like seeing you strip down and not get hypothermia by doing nude jumping jacks).

So my instict kicked in, and to avoid a HUGE situation b y bringing out the fire extinguisher, I just told the roommate to pour water over the situation, KNOWING that it was not a grease or electric fire and that water should sort the situation out appropriately. Well-- and this is hindsight-- there was a pizza box in that "situation" and THAT had grease on it, so when we went to pour water on it-- flames errupted.

K-- time for the extinguisher--which I have never used (thank God) until that moment, pull pin--aim-fire (no pun intended).

So yeah-- no damage other than the stress... spent a majority of that night cleaning up the mess that was made from battling horrendous flames and coming out the victor!!!!! I feel like I should have a calendar now that Im a FIYA FIGHTA!

Yep-- that was my Monday night/Tuesday morning....

Open invitation to any calendar fire fighters to come teach me some tips! lol (MUST be in a calendar! lol)

Today

I can only live my life day to day--- minute to minute-- and breathe....

So I have had some disappointment recently in the realm of profession. I understand why the move didnt happen and its not a fault-- well I guess I can blame Bush for the shitty economy, but other than that-- this is life...

So i keep my head up-- I stay put in my position becuase of the flexibility and the benefits and not to mention I LOVE WORKING HERE!

I am tired today, but rejuvinated in a way. I have gained back the focus that I need to propell me into good places. I am trying to stay positive, which is a daily battle and remember why I do what I do--- and also to know that all things that are meant to be will be.. that this path I walk, yes is mine, but I do not walk it alone... and that is a comfort.

So I wake every morning, with hope... I have also been writing again, which is NICE and refreshing and helps put that immediate feeling or thought down-- to be perserved and expanded or contracted. I love that about writing :)

So here is a piece that I have recently done:

Thoughts

I have a great many things to think about
A great many things to ponder
Daily life pales at my ideal
Future life
Yet
I struggle to consistently remember this broader view of the daily—and how the daily will blend with the future at one point
I spin within a Tuesday
Desperately grasping my wants
Frustrated at my diminutive reach
Continuous contradictions afflict me
The self is ever changing
Ever failing
Ever achieving
Ever pining

Contentment without struggle is weakness
I walk though the curtain of fog—into clear ponds of understanding
Into peace—from my ponderings
If only to start again tomorrow.