Today

I can only live my life day to day--- minute to minute-- and breathe....

So I have had some disappointment recently in the realm of profession. I understand why the move didnt happen and its not a fault-- well I guess I can blame Bush for the shitty economy, but other than that-- this is life...

So i keep my head up-- I stay put in my position becuase of the flexibility and the benefits and not to mention I LOVE WORKING HERE!

I am tired today, but rejuvinated in a way. I have gained back the focus that I need to propell me into good places. I am trying to stay positive, which is a daily battle and remember why I do what I do--- and also to know that all things that are meant to be will be.. that this path I walk, yes is mine, but I do not walk it alone... and that is a comfort.

So I wake every morning, with hope... I have also been writing again, which is NICE and refreshing and helps put that immediate feeling or thought down-- to be perserved and expanded or contracted. I love that about writing :)

So here is a piece that I have recently done:

Thoughts

I have a great many things to think about
A great many things to ponder
Daily life pales at my ideal
Future life
Yet
I struggle to consistently remember this broader view of the daily—and how the daily will blend with the future at one point
I spin within a Tuesday
Desperately grasping my wants
Frustrated at my diminutive reach
Continuous contradictions afflict me
The self is ever changing
Ever failing
Ever achieving
Ever pining

Contentment without struggle is weakness
I walk though the curtain of fog—into clear ponds of understanding
Into peace—from my ponderings
If only to start again tomorrow.